What’s in a Word?

Hello Blogging world!

I have to admit that this is all quite overwhelming. I have a blog… never really thought I would say that. Honestly, this may not last long. If anyone is actually reading this, I feel like I need to explain myself a little and my motivation for this spilling-myself-on-the-internet thing.

I’m not really the type to put all my emotions, thoughts, and dreams displayed for the world to see. I’m quite the opposite. I tend to really keep to myself in huge settings (I am trying to convince myself I don’t have agoraphobia.. how frightening!). If you know me, you probably know that I adore spilling my guts in small-setting situations.. it’s truly one of the things I live for. But considering this is the ultimate large-setting venue, I’m really stepping out of my comfort zone.. which brings me to my point.

(If you can’t already tell, I get distracted from my purpose.. probably doesn’t help that I’ve been journaling for years and no one cares if there’s a point!)

My Motivation for entering the Great Cosmic World of Blogging:

1. Growing Up and Away…. You may know that I have mere months before I fly the nest of my home and soar into the big people world. I’m going to college! I feel like I’ve been literally waiting my whole life to go to college. You think I’d be prepared then, eh? Absolutely wrong. I am utterly terrified to grow up now that it’s knocking on the door of my comfy little home. Maybe the correct term would be anxious.. I am truly ready to start living the life God has called me to and I know this is the stepping stone to that glorious future He has in store (more about that later). Anywho, I am planning on attending Toccoa Falls College next year. While still in GA, it’s about 2 1/2 hours away.. the perfect distance to lose touch and still be close enough to miss everything! Thus, I have created a tool of communication utilized in a blog. Of course, everyone and their pet rock have a facebook/twitter , so how much do yuo really keep up with on there? I thought it might be an effective way for all my lovelies to know what’s going on in my mind as I start this adventure. These first few will truly be a warm up for the next up-coming months.

2. Perfecting a Skill I Love…. If you know me at all, you know I love the art of expression known as writing. It has always been my most-loved subject in school as well as a relaxing and challenging past time. By rhe looks of this entry, you also know that I have trouble with the amount of candor while writing.. my thoughts are all over the place, yet sincere. I am convinced that some of the things I write I will never be able to say out loud (maybe another reason I’m soft for love letters..the boldness it requires!). I’ll admit I’ve been pointed out as awkward and even ill-prepared when it comes to speeches, but when I write.. oh! I feel like I am a complete other being.. someone who people care about their opinions and thoughts. I can write with eloquence and structure an analysis or idea with biting wit or effective persuasion with confidence that my mouth never allows me. In all, I wish to use this as a practice for a possible future in one of my passions. (I also need help in concisely producing an idea.. if you could’nt already tell.)

3. To Share with the World Who I am.. stylistically , that is. I love art and any definition that qualifies as such. Images or sounds or ideas created for a purpose– those are really the things that make my soul smile. So.. I paint, I draw, I write, I listen, I photograph, and I collect art. That’s something I will most assuredly be sharing on this good ‘ol blog.

Because I feel like this is already too long, I’ll leave you to digest everything I’ve just written.. of course that would imply that someone actually read this silly thing!

Happy Thursday!

Hailey